The only things worse than being with a person who mis treats you, is being with them a second longer. Darling, know your worth. It’s okay to walk away from things that hurts. Relationship, friendship, family. All the toxic thing aren’t supposed to be yours. This is your life. You’ve to make it worthy. I don’t know who told you holding onto things which makes you sad and your heart heavy is a good thing. But they for sure lied to you. Crying your heart out at the middle of night, sobbing until you can no longer give a voice can never be a good thing. Don’t let the same kind of pain get to you twice. Let it go before it weigh you down.
Don’t allow him to get to you. If he doesn’t call you. Just go to sleep. If he is busy and not texting you. Do something worthy. Hang out with friends. Have fun. If he tries to manipulate you or plays with your feelings, walk away from him. He doesn’t own you. Respect is something you should never ask from him. Live for yourself first.
The most important thing that your heart should seek for is content. you should let yourself walk on a road that makes you happy and helps you sleep well at night. I pray you are then with people that love and support you and bring you the right kind of comfort your heart needs. because it's always perfectly alright to accept yourself and the person you are each day.
It's perfectly alright to love yourself a little each day just as much as it is to love someone else a little too much with every passing day. It's perfectly okay to change. And it's perfectly okay to accept it. and i hope you accept it, i hope the people around you do too.